Saturday, January 22, 2011
It's been way too long
This is really an easy-way-out post but I've been actually pretty busy lately (my usual internship, errands, friends, driving back and forth to CT constantly) so I haven't had a chance to sit down and collect my thoughts but I need to just say that I WILL BE WRITING SOON. I have a bunch of drafts started about some pretty (what I think is) interesting stuff: music, jobs, etc. I've also ordered a bunch of books about online publishing and HTML/ Web Design so look for some attempts at changes here, as well as photograph. So stay tuned.
Monday, January 10, 2011
The Resolution
So I've been procrastinating for a few weeks. I've been busy, for sure, but I've also been doing a lot of what you might call "self-discovery." After my "experience" last semester, which wrought me at times with self-doubt and resentment, I've become determined to have a clean start this year and really focus on being that person that I want to be. There is no better time to start than now... I've got a new internship and a new outlook on things, and there was just no way I was going to start this semester with a messy room (although it probably will not last too long).
In going through the enormous pile of papers and notebooks and odds and ends that has accumulated over the past, oh, four years, and has lived in the corner of my bedroom since I moved into this apartment almost two years ago, I felt renewed and empowered.
Yet, I also realized something else. At the very bottom of the plastic bin where these papers were living, was something I had been searching for for at least a couple of years now: a film my friends and I had made during our senior year of high school for Independent Study. It was like the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, an unexpected prize.
I watched it almost immediately. It's a film about 20 minutes long called "Setback" and it "showcases"the snowboarding "skills" of myself, my best friend, our high school boyfriends, and our good friend Tiina (a Finnish exchange student that year) and also highlights the setbacks we endured while making the film (injuries, illnesses, finances, and scheduling problems). Not only did it bring back great memories, but it reminded me of how hard we had worked on it. Between the research, the filming, the editing, and the snowboarding, we spent more time on that film that year than anything else. It really reminded me how far a little hard work can go. But mostly, how important it is to work at the things you love.
I never make New Years Resolutions; mostly out of fear that I will never be able to keep them. However, this year I am resolving to just do more of what I love, to be the woman that the high school senior me knew I would become, and who I think I have become, yet sometimes forget to be. If that makes any sense at all.
Life is about living and the key is doing what makes you feel alive. This year I'm going to write more (hopefully this blog will help!), read in my free time, reteach myself how to play my guitar, and hopefully go snowboarding at least once. Everything else will fall into place.
In going through the enormous pile of papers and notebooks and odds and ends that has accumulated over the past, oh, four years, and has lived in the corner of my bedroom since I moved into this apartment almost two years ago, I felt renewed and empowered.
Yet, I also realized something else. At the very bottom of the plastic bin where these papers were living, was something I had been searching for for at least a couple of years now: a film my friends and I had made during our senior year of high school for Independent Study. It was like the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, an unexpected prize.
I watched it almost immediately. It's a film about 20 minutes long called "Setback" and it "showcases"the snowboarding "skills" of myself, my best friend, our high school boyfriends, and our good friend Tiina (a Finnish exchange student that year) and also highlights the setbacks we endured while making the film (injuries, illnesses, finances, and scheduling problems). Not only did it bring back great memories, but it reminded me of how hard we had worked on it. Between the research, the filming, the editing, and the snowboarding, we spent more time on that film that year than anything else. It really reminded me how far a little hard work can go. But mostly, how important it is to work at the things you love.
I never make New Years Resolutions; mostly out of fear that I will never be able to keep them. However, this year I am resolving to just do more of what I love, to be the woman that the high school senior me knew I would become, and who I think I have become, yet sometimes forget to be. If that makes any sense at all.
Life is about living and the key is doing what makes you feel alive. This year I'm going to write more (hopefully this blog will help!), read in my free time, reteach myself how to play my guitar, and hopefully go snowboarding at least once. Everything else will fall into place.
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